day 2 - i must not think bad thoughts. down to my last $29. in kentucky. hot as fuck. just ran into kerry atkins and he bought me a beer. so great to see him. i knew coming to the mag bar was a good idea. a regular at the mag bar was just scolded by the bartender "for a straight dude all you talk about is dicks. all you ever do is come in here and talk about dicks." worse things to talk about, right. laying low. granola for dinner tonight. granola for breakfast. and buying 1 beer. my machine gun. i must shoot rapid fire. it will come. just glad to be doing it. glad to write. to say hello. to engage. to be in the now. watched little darlings on chris wunderlich's wall last night. so awesome. so great! so epic! so poignant. so prescient. put out!

here we go. you. me. we are free!

good morning, day 1 of my first blog. inspired by bukowski. i read yesterday "YOUR TYPEWRITER IS YOUR MACHINE GUN" and he is so right. so here i am. starting from scratch. on my typewriter. on my MACHINE GUN. my lap top. so much to say. just back from 4 days at timberfell, a gay campgrounds in eastern kentucky. it was DOMINATION weekend. i went with the col., jim to be specific. he is a married us army col stationed at fort knox. we met online a few months ago when he was looking for someone to go to stag run club with him. stag run club is a gay ranch in southern indiana. to not go to far backwards. we became friends and decided to embark on our 3rd camping trip together. to give some background to the trip. jim has been lying to his wife about his gay adventures. he has been bold enough to tell her that he thinks he is gay. they are married 26 yrs, but he has yet to tell her that he is engaging in male on male sex. well, this weekend he was finally busted when we hit a car backing out of a liquor store parking lot in tennessee. you see he told his wife he was in northern kentucky and then he told her that the city and state on the accident report has been an error. i told her she isn't stupid. so the next morning after telling him at dinner to quit lying and move forward he decided to tell his wife everything. everything. the col and i were kind of messing around but not really. just hanging out helping someone comes to terms with the fact that they are gay. more later